One Step Ahead

I tried to find my way back to you

but the path had mysteriously dissolved

There were things i wanted to tell you

many things i wanted to share with you

now they are left dangling like split ends

I stopped there for some time flatfooted

At the place where we left off

That space where we laughed without a care

Enjoying each other’s company

Feeling like every day was a holiday

And believing it would never end

Those days of fire

There was an air of sadness left behind

I smell something familiar but it was gone in a second

No amount of deep breathing could return that day

Only fragments remained

Sprinkled like fairy dust and scattered too sparsely to collect

It was gone and sadly reminding me was a song in the distance

A tune you once hummed while you were working

I loved to watch you as you carefully handled things

Joyfully and playfully I see our hearts

Skipping over the beat

Like teenagers fumbling with love

We shared many moments

which i had strung together like pearls

and methodically I rotate each one

to relive the precious feelings

I filled the spaces in between with plastic beads

many colours shapes and sizes

they were reminders that did not compare

nothing compares

your eyes sparkled with every smile you opened

every gentle touch was infused with love

the many chuckles in resistance

struggling to hold back laughter

confirming the snug fit we had found

within each other

the mischievous one and

the rebel without a cause

Where are you now?

I think of you so often

It’s because I’m looking inside

this open heartscape

How will I find you again?

I suspect you discovered your wings

And flew ahead of us

So I will keep moving forward

With loving hope and renewed faith

Believing you may be clearing the road ahead

For us stragglers

Always one step ahead and ready for anything

I love that about you

That’s what keeps me going

Pussyfoot hot on the trail….. Only one step behind

SPLIT ENZ – One Step Ahead

 

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redundancy

So I’ve served my purpose

and you figured it all out

Something we both had to learn

but there’s still so much doubt

Maybe it’s just intrigue

a curiosity to kill the cat

See what truth lies behind those eyes

find answers

Or is that just my ego

That persistent nagging ego

It tricks me to think i need to

Try harder

Achieve to succeed

Prove myself

do better and think bigger

Years of conditioning

implanted in my brain

Do this don’t do that

Cant you read the sign?

My new and improved

Human design

Sadly needs more practise

To think from the heart

Act from the wisdom of the soul

Listen for direction from

My almighty self

But what IF

my pussyfooting helped you

I can only hope

if my purpose was to annoy you

that all your sweet and sticky situations

were fruitful

You got the big picture long ago

But i kept messing it up

With my spray can

Im sorry, please forgive me, i & I love you

You played along

Just for me

Until the penny dropped

But i think they ran out of coin

And i’m left here wondering why

Why things don’t work

like they did before

And why the door closed

Before I could explore

cat-bird

 

beautiful nature

I can hardly recognise your playfulness

It’s hidden behind those tickets

Stuck all over your beautiful nature

There’s some screeching at your throat “I’m angry”

And blood stained jealously on your back

There’s a tattoo of a purple heart on your chest

And in the middle of your forehead spells “kiss me”

Let me peel off these attachments

And wipe clean the sticky stuff underneath

Can we restore the colours of our beautiful moments?

Please don’t take mine away

It’s how I choose to remember you

So forgive me please

As I collect what’s left to hold and cherish

My Sixteen hundred and eleven magic moments

Moments that remain embedded in my heart

The truly madly deeply kind

The ones that leave you smiling for days

Returning the twinkles in your eye

And putting the spring in your step

You held my hand with your open heart

And you reached inside to my thoughts

Tangled around your beautiful mind

my dysfunctional patterns you lovingly caught

BEAUTIFUL MIND

 

eternally grateful, still pussyfooting

 

FEEDback

she’s right ! “you make up stories in your head”

spending days writing scripts creating characters

typing a hundred miles per hour and for what, for who?

the BIG screenplay writer the one we all hope will notice us one day

and give us our lucky break the one with all the power to grant our wishes

bring our stories to life, publish a new beginning a never ending story of a LIFE

filled with HAPPINESS fuelled by unconditional LOVE sprinkled with SWEETNESS and familiar flavours of the TRUTH stirred vigorously by the SOUL brought to the bubble breaking boil over KARMA perfecting the Al dente consistency of EGO spiced up a little by SPIRITS garnished with a sour taste of REALITY “it’s all just make believe mum” AN EXTRA SERVE please “it’s all in your head” DOUBLE HELPING thanks “you are certifiably crazy” OUCH was that a knife in my back? BITEback2

is everybody on this food chain required to dish out

FEEDback that spoils your appetite?

QUESTIONS about Pussy^^foot taste buds and NEW diet plans CATmuzzle

Great Expectations

Sometimes we are on the same page

We’ll enjoy a paragraph or two

But when we skip to a different chapter

I’m like a nut chasing a screw

NUTscrew

 

You must be from a different planet

I don’t understand you at all

Drawing me in with your magnetic charms

Pulling the rug just to watch me fall

RUGpuller3I’m already loopy; screwed up in the head

I don’t need extra help from you

Not always responding how you imagine?

Are your Great Expectations overdue?

ESTELLAAnger won’t force me into submission

I’m sorry I don’t play that way

Why don’t you try next door tomorrow

They might know the right words to say

ESTELLAandPIPStruggling to keep a lid on it all

Adjusting emotional dials to cope

We could review that choice to zone out

Light up a joint and smoke some dope?

SMOKEinDREAMEventually I might follow your rules

And do exactly as you say

It’s not bloody likely though

Pussyfoot is not inclined to obeypussyfootKNEADSyou

 

Then of course you already knew that

I’ve always been a difficult princess

If you don’t let me have what I want

I’ll slap you for all that false pretense

pussyfootCHARLES

Pussy^^foot KISS and HUGS

 

PAWS on pause

Methodically she retraces her steps

…to discover where she went wrong

Only scratching bitter disappointment

…when he doesn’t sing her love song

Maybe it’s far too late

…to patch lick and repair

The damage is extensive

….he’s at the depth of his despair

Wanting to say “I’m sorry”

…is a slink in the right direction

But it’s not that easy for a pussyfoot

…who slices words dissecting them

While she’s stuck here analysing

…and trying to figure things out

She could have been enjoying his company

…instead of perfecting her pout

Perhaps he won’t forgive her

….for all the trouble she’s caused

But she’ll never know what’s next

…if she covers play with pause

REMOTEcat

 

pussy^^footing

PAWS on PAUSE