One Step Ahead

I tried to find my way back to you

but the path had mysteriously dissolved

There were things i wanted to tell you

many things i wanted to share with you

now they are left dangling like split ends

I stopped there for some time flatfooted

At the place where we left off

That space where we laughed without a care

Enjoying each other’s company

Feeling like every day was a holiday

And believing it would never end

Those days of fire

There was an air of sadness left behind

I smell something familiar but it was gone in a second

No amount of deep breathing could return that day

Only fragments remained

Sprinkled like fairy dust and scattered too sparsely to collect

It was gone and sadly reminding me was a song in the distance

A tune you once hummed while you were working

I loved to watch you as you carefully handled things

Joyfully and playfully I see our hearts

Skipping over the beat

Like teenagers fumbling with love

We shared many moments

which i had strung together like pearls

and methodically I rotate each one

to relive the precious feelings

I filled the spaces in between with plastic beads

many colours shapes and sizes

they were reminders that did not compare

nothing compares

your eyes sparkled with every smile you opened

every gentle touch was infused with love

the many chuckles in resistance

struggling to hold back laughter

confirming the snug fit we had found

within each other

the mischievous one and

the rebel without a cause

Where are you now?

I think of you so often

It’s because I’m looking inside

this open heartscape

How will I find you again?

I suspect you discovered your wings

And flew ahead of us

So I will keep moving forward

With loving hope and renewed faith

Believing you may be clearing the road ahead

For us stragglers

Always one step ahead and ready for anything

I love that about you

That’s what keeps me going

Pussyfoot hot on the trail….. Only one step behind

SPLIT ENZ – One Step Ahead

 

suffering terminal indecision

I’ve always let my feeling flow

like water from the tap

running hot and cold

but it’s only myself I con

It’s safer to do nothing, with so much going on……

Conflicting emotions, never let me be
Conflicting emotions, always in the way
Conflicting emotions, making everything so hard for me

The main obstacle in my way, is terminal indecision
I waver and I sway
My friends don’t know who I am
One day I’m in clover, next day in a jam

BEESflower
And all of my tomorrows and all my yesterdays belong to you

Conflicting emotions, never let me be
Conflicting emotions, always in the way
Conflicting emotions, making everything so hard for me

Conflicting emotions, never let me be
Conflicting emotions, always in the way
Conflicting emotions, making everything so hard for me

Split Enz – Conflicting Emotions

1983

Tim Finn OBE born 25th June, 1952

Many’s a Time – Before and After 1993

 

 

The Song of the Heart

his mum and dad met in the usual way…

the song became love and love became the egg

Happy Feet at School

The Song of the Heart written and performed by Prince

 

 

redundancy

So I’ve served my purpose

and you figured it all out

Something we both had to learn

but there’s still so much doubt

Maybe it’s just intrigue

a curiosity to kill the cat

See what truth lies behind those eyes

find answers

Or is that just my ego

That persistent nagging ego

It tricks me to think i need to

Try harder

Achieve to succeed

Prove myself

do better and think bigger

Years of conditioning

implanted in my brain

Do this don’t do that

Cant you read the sign?

My new and improved

Human design

Sadly needs more practise

To think from the heart

Act from the wisdom of the soul

Listen for direction from

My almighty self

But what IF

my pussyfooting helped you

I can only hope

if my purpose was to annoy you

that all your sweet and sticky situations

were fruitful

You got the big picture long ago

But i kept messing it up

With my spray can

Im sorry, please forgive me, i & I love you

You played along

Just for me

Until the penny dropped

But i think they ran out of coin

And i’m left here wondering why

Why things don’t work

like they did before

And why the door closed

Before I could explore

cat-bird